06/19/13 If you are like most people on the planet, then you can relate to going through various phases in your life. Christians like to call them seasons and not phases but nonetheless for the sake of my reading audience I shall use the word phases as it pleases me and it is a moot point to Him. I shall also spare you, my reading audience the total exasperation and shear drudgery of walking throughout all the various seasons of my life. If I were to do so, it is sure I would lose the friends I already have but dare say even writing with wit and wisdom I shall no doubt lose some.
Like a narrow light seeking its source so let me focus on something significant or shall I say, The Spirit of God enlightened this thought to me some days back. Either way you phrase it, no matter the verbiage we must not lose sight of the initial thought of intent that is unfolding before us. Light does not make something prettier or drearier it magnifies what is already there. Natural light doesn't bring us into a more objective mindset as some would think but light magnifies, intensifies and quite often clarifies what we think we thought we saw or knew to be before us but might have been mistaken.
Has anyone besides me as a child saw ugly horrible flesh eating things lurking in the shadows of night? Then once we've awakened we see more clearly that those monsters were nothing more than ungodly thoughts planted deep within our mind. It is this authors desire and hope that my attempt to interpret what I have seen and felt is not lost through translation but resonates within you like the sounding of a lone church bell calling people to worship not to sleep.
Before I go into exploratory realms of thought let me first give you the basis or the foundation of them.
Dare I say, Holy Spirit the light of God has continually kept this scripture upon my breast. First as a necklace, a charm of significance, a revelation and personal thought that I assumed to be a gift that was mine alone. In the night I would hold it and caress it until it became not more shiny but dull and unattractive. Its weight becoming heavier with each passing night. Lord what does this mean? What are you saying to me? His light then shone upon the dullness of my understanding and I saw clearly my true condition and of those whom were surrounding me...
He who has ears to hear, let him hear! But to what shall I liken this generation? It is like children sitting in the marketplaces and calling to their companions and saying:
‘We played the flute for you, And you did not dance; We mourned to you, And you did not lament'…
Beloved,companions are friends as foes are enemies. Companions are those with whom we have spent considerable time with and we believe we know but in knowing our friends dare I say if not careful we can lose track of ourselves, of who we are. If not careful we can come to expect our traveling companions, our families, our church relationships, our prophets and dare I even say our God to accommodate us, when in reality we first showed up as a willing servant and friend.
Lord we were humbled to be near you, honored by your gift of relationship and presence of mind. The shiny newness of our relationship was like gold, a medallion placed around the neck. Yet time has eclipsed us and with each passing day it becomes more common to wear it, to have it to hold it until it has lost its shine and appeal. The luster is all but gone and I knew it not. When I rub it nothing happens. When I sing, you do not dance. When I asked you to use your gift-talent on my behalf, you did not. Father, my continual asking, demanding for more things of which I desired is when our relationship turned away from you back to me and I knew it not. Father we came originally to serve you, to serve others. Our initial obligations were simple,
"'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' Luke 10:27
Father, when did we become bastard children with whom you could not speak or correct, unless we were demanding it? When did we become selfish and self centered seeking only our own delights and pleasures? Father, when did we turn from seeking entirely your will and your ways to playing roulette with your prophetic ministers? Father, how far have we fallen away from your will seeking our own? And when we do not get what we ask or demand we insult,crucify, slander those whom we were just asking bread…
Oh Father, please return back to us our dignity and restore our relationships. We cast down our flutes and our pipes. We thrown down our songs and rituals, we throw down each and every vile thing that has exalted itself before you. Oh Father, please do not leave us in this condition now that light has appeared even unto the dull places of our heart. Forgive us for insulting your intelligence, Forgive us for the shallow pettiness of our ways.
How dare we continually abuse our friends and mock our Savior! How dare we demand prophets to prophesy beyond measure and your apostles to perform! Is it not your mercy and grace which you extend to all to do what is asked of by you and not us?
Forgive us Father for being and falling into the trap of rebellion. The enemy is a liar and unbeknownst to me I have assisted him by demanding my own way, living unto myself for the sole purpose of getting my desires, dreams and self fulfilling prophecies met. I need to be dead to self in accordance to Galatians 2:20.
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in this body, I live by faith in and through the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
It is this authors wish to reclaim what the enemy has stolen but when a heart is determined and dead set on achieving what it wants by and through any method or measure then even Jesus himself will not dance. It is this Christ which lives in me that has restrained me over these last few years. He has not spoken as some would like. He has not answered many of you the way or in a time you may have wanted. He has taught me a lesson about dancing. He has not exposed your heart to me or the heart of any man in particular. Just see this, if they did it to Jesus back then and people are still doing it now then certainly there is nothing new under the sun.
For years without measure and days without end Prophet Tom has walked among you. For many I existed before you were born into this life and yet I have continually walked with Him according to the plans and purposes He had designed for me. My knowledge, what Father had whispered in my ear, what was written by my own hand within my journal is coming true. It is likened to a medallion upon ones neck… A gift from God, which represents a dream that you carry but have never striven to make come to pass for you already possess it, you have already received it, you already own it. It is His promise, His Word.
In my past, in years that lay behind me are recollections of a younger man who danced when people asked. Prayed when people sought me out and prophesied to no end. My friends were many back then. I believed that those who traveled with me cared for me because I was a gift from God and not just a prophet or a future apostle in the making.
I was truly their friend as they were mine but something changed, people changed through the years and suddenly the crowds which enjoyed just being with their friend Tom were demanding I dance when they asked and just because they asked.
For a while, years actually I accommodated them and this behavior until the Lord asked me to come away with Him. At this point you may be thinking, I already know why God asked Tom to step aside but if you guessed you would be wrong. He was not wanting to expose the abuses of friendship, ministry relationship can take. He is our friend and will not publicly embarrass us, we can do that all by ourselves.
He wanted me to mature from prophetic into the apostolic. To do this He knew that it would more possible if I came aside verses asking the crowds to disperse. He knew because He was my friend in whom I trusted that I would grow in grace as He challenged my convictions without me feeling any threat of condemnation. We all know I can do the prophetic dance it's just I need to know why I was doing it.
He asked me to come away with Him not because of what people were now demanding of me but because He wanted to show me who and what a real friend, a true friend was supposed to act like and how to treat their friends.
Jesus is my friend, Holy Spirit is my friend and Father God is my friend. Over these last few years they have not asked much of me or expected anything particular from me but have loved on me. They have continually and unconditionally loved on me. They have wrecked me by just being my friends. They have asked nothing, demanded nothing, needed nothing with one exception they just wanted me to receive their unadulterated friendship. It's only when you come aside when you distance yourself from the crowds and the crowd pleasers that you can really see and understand who your real friends are.
Father God taught me about my motivation, my desire and about how naive I had become to people and their agendas. To a fault. He showed me why I needed true friends not crowds or mass e mail lists or enticing newsletters. He said, my child not that you have done these things for you already knew you do not get friends because you can prophesy to everyone who asks. For all that ask are not your friends.They have learned to ask you to dance not be your friend, there is a difference.
Life has taught you that neither does anyone ever make friends through the selling of gimmicks, gadgets,lotions or potions, Christian or otherwise. If you are taught to use trickery it would soon turn into harlotry for both parties. People are deceived by deception not because they are blind but because they are un-regenerated in body soul and spirit.
True friends keep you out of trouble not lure you into it. Real friends don't abuse their relationships because they place greater value upon them then themselves. My child no greater love has a man than to lay his life down for a friend. Jesus said, I am your friend. Be like Me in all your ways…
My Child,true friends demonstrate their capacity to be just that through their unselfish acts. Friends don't demand friends dance, I am and have proven throughout the years to you that I am your friend. We promised we would never leave you or forsake you. Neither would we ever use you or abuse you. We gave you your gift to enhance our friendship not define it. My child I wish all were My friends. Then they would also one day understand this, I am the only person you should dance with and for.
My dear readers, Can you, will we still be friends in this next season of our life, Or do you somehow see yourself sitting with the band, the crowd demanding the next performance the next dance? If this is so…
I'm sorry to inform you, I've learned some very valuable lessons in my absence from public ministry.
You don't and I don't need to dance to get approval, accolades, acceptance anymore. I don't know why you dance but for me,
I dance because it is fun. I dance because I can. It's always been from God and about God and that is definitely not going to change. I can say this because He is My best friend and I'm honored to be His.
Time and seasons change and so do people. I am not the man I used to be, I am no longer the man you once thought me to be and I am yet to become all He has meant for me. Ecclesiastes 3:1- 22
I have always been known as Prophet Tom and a part of me will always be but for now I'm learning and enjoying my new role in life. I hope you enjoyed this letter.
Until I write again I am yours,
Apostle Tom Hayden Breakthroughworshipcentere.org 1 Corinthians 13:1-13