Is today the tomorrow you dreamed about yesterday?
Watch & Pray
04.20.18 Have you ever talked to yourself? I know we talk to people and we talk to God. A lot of folks talk to the devil. This includes Christians but that is not my point. The talking to the devil thing. That is not my point. My point was… do you ever talk to yourself? King David is quoted as saying in Psalm 43:5a… Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why are you so disturbed within me? Have you been feeling downcast? Have you been feeling disturbed inside? I have. That’s why I am writing.
Time Travel I do not know when I started. I have not yet stopped. Today I had another episode. This is something I cannot control. It’s like being a passenger in a car with the windows down. The air is crisp and cool but not too cool as to make you chilled. It’s the kind of ride where you feel safe with whose driving. You're allowed to close your eyes and relax. You're allowed to feel. To drift off with any and all thoughts that will come. You feel safe. Not guarded. This is it is with the Lord as of late. It’s like being in a car going down memory lane. My mind goes back 20-25 years as I listen to the voices and instruments before me. People I remember so well. Their voices ringing out with such certainty and clarity. They were projecting the word of the Lord to that generation and to the one to come. A sadness followed as their voices trailed off. I am alive now. I listened to them then. I listen to them now. These preachers of renown. These leaders of the masses. Nothing has happened since all the hype, all the spin, all the conferences, all the meetings, the gatherings, the cd sales, book sales. It’s all gone. They are now old and all they declared they prophesied did not and has not happened. Much of it from a platform and pulpit 20 plus years ago.
Don’t think back then I wasn’t caught up in the hype as many were, I was. I wanted change in the body of Christ, in the USA, in my life, in the world. Heck, I’ve heard so many rapture dates I’ve lost track. I’m not sure, maybe they’ve all left and I am still here and don’t know they left. My soul feels a weight. It’s not from human circumstances around me presently. That weight is on the outside in. What I feel. What I sense is of the Lord. It’s trapped on the inside. It hurts my heart and my soul.
Today as I drove having quiet time with the Lord the weight continued to increase. We did have a cd in playing lowly but as I listened to the singers and the psalmist (not it was not Kim) it was somebody else. I realized this cd was from 1999. Their words tore at me. Their words, their perfectly pitched and performed melodies mixed with prophetic utterances bruised my spirit. The more I listened the more my soul was vexed. Nothing had come of all that was spoken back then… not a thing.
We did need a change back then as we do now. But all of a sudden I realized what was being said was out of belief. Not utterances from God but wishes from a man's heart. Words I missed back then now struck me like arrows. I didn’t agree, I couldn’t agree with what I once thought to be true. I know it’s not. I’ve lived long enough past them to know.
How many years is a generation? 30-40 years maybe. I’ve been walking with the Lord a little over 36 years. Basically, I have seen a generation of Christians come and go. People were Born Again and lived their life. They proclaimed things, professed things which they said were of God. Running to and fro saving a generation to which there seems to be little change. So much said, so little done. Many of the things I heard in the beginning back in the 80’s-90’s that I knew were not of God and would not pan out.
The Lord said I see it too Tom. Leave it alone for now… Let each man, each woman have their day. Let the sun shine on them. What goes up will come down. In the shadows of time will they be remembered. All will be remembered for what they have done. The words of man will fall to the ground and fail but the words, The Words Of The Lord Will Prevail. What you see now is the dust and the rust, the residue of what was. No one has a do-over. What you’re thinking about. What you’re seeing & feeling is of Me. My heart hurts too. I feel the weight. The weightiness you feel is of Me.
Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.
Tom, I am not asking you to do mighty things. I am not asking you to proclaim or redirect a generation. I am not looking for a spokesperson to write all wrongs. There are none that are perfect, no not one not even you. My grace is sufficient. So is My mercy. It’s full it’s everlasting. My love is boundless & yes it’s eternal. There is a message inside you. I placed it there. The time was not then, it is not quite now. What I want you to do is pray. Gather together those who feel the same weight. Make an appeal to those who have seen a generation go bye and whose heart sinks. Many were the promises past. Today many seem lost. But I am here. I am now. Gather together the praying people. Those who have not lost hope entirely and who feel the weight & burden.
I do not know what to say or how to end this. I do not know how to make an appeal. I do not know what to say. With all my skill and ability of writing, I am at a loss for words. I do not need silent prayer partners. Nor do I want to continue to write letters sending them into midair hoping they land. Not knowing if they do. I do not want to be a repeat of the last generation. I am not one to ask for anything much but I feel I must…
If your heart hurts. If you feel the weight of the Lord and and and… I am sorry I feel like I’m trying to give you a sales pitch. I do not and will not do that. I offer you no answers. I offer you no rewards. I offer you no books, bracelets or CDs. I can’t promise you prophecies or words from above. What I can offer and it’s within my ability is to covenant with you as a prayer partner.
If having a personal prayer partner such as myself appeals to you and it seems good in the sight of the Lord. Then I ask you to sign up, contact me and we can start. This is for those who hear the word, see the vision and carry the burden of the Lord.
I have been speaking to my soul just as the Lord has been speaking to His. Our souls are burdened. Is yours?
Father, Let those who are meant to receive this word, receive it. In Jesus name.
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